Episode 4: Somebody Save Me. No Really. Save Me!

[Sonja]

Day 11



Sigh. I don't know how to make this tribe like me. I try and ask them questions about there life, I get nowhere, they either don't respond or they kill the conversation with 'LOL' or 'HAHA.' I seriously wasn't that aggressive with the grandma hornyness and even if I was- it's a fucking alias game. It was obviously a joke. The org community is about 80% homosexual male. How did I end up in a cast with a bunch of prudes? It's hard being an outsider. I am never a social outsider in ORGS. Go figure in the alias game I'm the equivalent of Darren Wilson or, actually, Casey Anthony might be more appropriate since I am dealing with Kindercare when it comes to this tribe.

I can be as fake as a porcelain doll with a smile painted wide across my face, but I've been labeled the bitch of the tribe and I will be voted off as such. I really need to start becoming more proactive. Alliances, Alliances, Alliances. The key - I will make deals without targetting anyone. I will let my ally's pick the names and I will float my way to the merge or tribe switch. This is all great in theory. Pray for me.

*In regards to the Nuva-Ring comment. I use AIM on WWW.AIM.COM. You get a bunch of ads surrounding your IM window, but hey, it works. In the last 3 days the only ads I get are for Nuva-Ring and 4 ways to have money when you retire. AIM thinks I am an old whore.

AIM is right.

[Sonja]

I just instant messaged Marty that the next challenge isn't TIME SENSITIVE.

He responds with 'HUH?' 'If that is the case we don't need to stress ourselves out over it'

WTF are you talking about? This tribe seriously doesn't fucking understand anything. They really don't get it. If I wasn't competitive and really enjoying your game (the game/challenge part) I would welcome elimination, just so I can escape with sanity.

I think you should replace some of my tribe-mates of seasons past... Like Jaclyn and Cochran , I would take Morgan's ass at this point.

[Sonja]

I just private messaged the following to Malcolm:

Congrats on surviving tribal! Final 17? 15? Lol. Whatever the case. Go us!

What times of the day are you mostly on AIM? So I can try and sign on at those times so we can chat. I wanted to talk to you some more about working together long term. Apparently our names were both being considered at this tribal. I think we should work on something to change that.

I think turning Malcolm into an ally will really better my position in the game. If I don't strike while the iron is hot, I am bound to kick myself in the ass for not acting sooner. If I can get Malcolm with me, with Andrea, and with Tyson... we will have half the tribe in unison. All it takes is a Marty or Chris to hop over and all will be good. It's a long shot, but HEY, I have to try. I never go down without a fight.

This game has been a super-new experience for me. Starting at the bottom and kind of banging my head against all these walls that won't break. Players who have already made first impressions there last impressions.

I would even welcome a tribe swift at this point. Treemail says that NOT EVERYONE HAS TO BE ON and the host told me it wasn't time sensitive.

I shouldn't get my hopes up. I can dream right?

[Sonja]

I have so much to update with. So So much. I will post probably 5 confessionals or so tomorrow HOPEFULLY.